Today, quoting words of wisdom from Paul David Tripp:
"I wake up every day with a plan. I know exactly what I want to accomplish,
how I want to accomplish it, and when I hope to complete it. I think ahead about
the things I need to accomplish and how they need to be approached. I envision
the end when I'm in the middle of the process. I naturally think schedules and
deadlines and assign myself completion points because it helps me to work more
efficiently.
I like being busy and I don't mind the pressure of being responsible for
what seems more than I can do. I go to bed rehearsing what needs to be done and
I wake up with the list corrected and in better order. I don't mind getting up
early and staying up late. I wake up every day with an agenda. There's never a
day when I don't have a plan.
Now, you're probably thinking, "Paul's poor wife! This man is obsessed!" I
am committed to responsible living and I don't think responsible people have a
lot of free time. But there's a problem with all of this. I do make a really
good pseudo-sovereign. You know, I love me and have a wonderful plan for my
life. And I can struggle with the sovereign God whom I claim to serve, but who's
not signed on to do everything he can to make my plan work.
Here's where our agendas tend to conflict. While I'm investing my energies
to make sure my work is complete, he's exercising his grace to make sure I'm
complete. While I'm working toward success, he's working towards my holiness.
While I'm committed to a disciplined and orderly day, he's committed to use
whatever's needed to advance his work in and through me.
But it's not even that simple or obvious. The reason it's so easy for me to
be snookered by my own self-sovereignty is that the bulk of what I'm doing is
work for the kingdom. I tell myself that it's all about God, his kingdom, and
his glory.
You see, the problem with the kingdom of self is that it's a costume
kingdom. It so deftly masquerades as the kingdom of God. So self- aggrandizing
plans for success masquerade as godly discipline. Impatience with others
masquerades as a leader's zeal for the kingdom of God. Holding too firmly onto
personal plans masquerades as godly focus.
It's quite easy to think you're serving God when you're actually serving
yourself. It's quite easy to confuse your plan with God's plan. It's quite easy
to praise the fact that God‘s in charge while living as if you are. It's quite
possible to thinking you're building his kingdom when actually you're using his
building materials to erect your own little kingdom. It's quite possible to do
all of this because the kingdom of self so easily morphs into the shape of the
kingdom of God.
This is why we need more than a system of redemption. This is why we need
more than theology and rules. This is why we need more than a set of wisdom
principles. This is why we need a Redeemer.
What we need to be rescued from the most is us! We need to be freed from
our hold on us. We need to be freed from our desire to dominate us. We need to
be liberated from imprisonment to our agenda for us. We need a Redeemer because
our greatest struggle in life exists inside of us and not outside of us.
So once more today I confess to my allegiance to me. Once more I confess to
my desire for self-sovereignty. Once more I pry open my hands and let go of the
tight grip I have on my life. Once more I entrust my day, my schedule, my plans,
and my life into the hands of the One who’s sovereign. Once more I rest in his
power, wisdom, grace, faithfulness, and love. Sure, I keep planning, but with
the hope that each day I'll do it more and more with my head bowed before his
glory and my hand open to his will."
photo courtesy of Thistledown Photography
Beautiful selection! This was wonderful, yet so true. It definitely makes you think twice about what you do. Thank you, sweet mommy.
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